So when I was younger I was obsessed with reading and writing. I once
stayed in the bathroom late at night reading because I needed to finish
my book and I knew no one would bother me in there. My whole family
thought I'd be a writer and teachers would give me more difficult
assignments because I needed to developed my talent. Needless to say I
am not a famous writer and when my major was English in college I hated
it. Now my plan is to write about achieving my every day goals. Let's
see how this goes.
5 years ago this coming Aug will be the anniversary of my dad's death. It took us all by shock, we knew he was over weight and not the healthiest but his heart attack impacted us all greatly. I'm pretty sure it falls under the whole, it will never happen to us theory. He was an amazing man, with a list of faults but so many positive qualities that his service could not fit everyone that came to the funeral home. He use to say his biggest fear was that he would die alone, impacting no one and be buried with just his 3 girls to say good bye. (me, my mother and my sister) Jokes on you poppa-san, you shut down a whole block!
Anyway...My dad was my number one fan of me, even when he was the only one in the stands, and since his death I have realized that I owe it to not only myself but to him to finally stop being stupid and do what is best for me. I still made a pretty huge mistake after his death and before my realization but hey I'm on a good path now and that is what counts.
So my goals that I am setting forth for myself:
1: Finish school by Dec, although it will probably be Feb which is still good!
2: Stay positive, everyday. There is someone in the world out there having a worse day then I am, and as long as I have love in my life (which I do), a roof over my head and my head on straight I'll be ok.
3: Get back into shape. Now is when most people go "Oh God who isn't saying that...yada yada". Well hopefully everyone is saying that in some form and who hasn't tried this diet or that diet. I am not going on a diet, I am not spending hours in the gym, mostly due to the fact no I do not have time. I go to work, come home, go to school or be home taking care of my crazy 3 years old and taking care of my house. Not to mention I am not single and being in a relationship takes work also. So good for the people who can go to the gym for an hour or two but am I not you and I have to make it work other ways. And the obvious stand point, I never want my daughter to go through what I did. I don't want her to wake up one day and find out I died too young because I was too lazy and unmotivated to take care of myself. There will always be an excuse to not do something but this is the biggest to do something better.
For today's goal - I am happy because I get to go to bed early today which excites me because I haven't slept more then 6 hours in a few weeks and my body is hitting a breaking point. As for the healthy part well I have started eating healthier and can hopefully get a 30-45 min walk in some time tonight, depends how long traffic court is. Before going to bed: some homework, personal time with the lovey and well if that goes well...*smiles* then sleep!! **angels singing in background with the word sleep** This is the plan but when do plans work out the way we want them to haha
